I have had around 33 years on this Earth and counting….
I have learned all the basics( I guess…) and they have become like second nature that it is hard to trace where it starts and ends… vague. I know– My head is all a clutter now from not writing constantly these 2 or more so years… to echo a friend who used this line a few years back.. I was busy living.
I guess in these my 33 years I have met friends, grew with them, lost them, found them back, made new ones along the way. Of course, hiding from them is also included I daresay. Not with an ill will but as all people do, sometimes it is easier to keep silent than talk about the not so rosy parts of one’s life, that doesn’t mean though that we have stopped thinking about them or caring for them… or missing them.
There is a certain part of me that died when I entered secluded life.
Memories have become less vivid. I would, I think, feel like a stranger in my own High School Reunion because of the years spent in silence trying to look at no less than the invisible God.
This is not an excuse.
Nor is it a complain of what I had done in the past.
It is just an admission of the truth that I feel but haven’t gone around to saying.
I don’t exactly remember who I was before…
I don’t exactly know anymore how to be who I was… and so I have no choice but to be who I am now.
I am smiling as I type these words…
And in my own way– I wish to reach out to those who care to read my entry today.
It is alright to change. It is good to grow old and older as the years pass by. As long as we are clear on the road that we trod daily and we are firm that in our heart we are open to accept the changes that we will see and the new persons that we have become over the years.
I am a far cry from the girl with curly hair and long knitted socks that I was before. I still have the same eyes though, I have made mistakes but I have also made worthwhile ones.
It is deathly quiet in my FB Wall. I guess I have remained quiet for too long. Ahem…clearing my throat now…
Hello World. I hope life is good to all of you now. And even if Life weren’t I hope we all have learned how to cope.